A simple story of a not so simple guy who wants to achieve a lot more than he can ...Ok that's crap. Here is a log book of my life and some thoughts. Enjoy~

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Ouch ...Kena sore eyes

Yes, how irritating. Supposed to be enjoying my 2 days of leave and now I have conjunctivitis. Woke up like more than ten times last night and felt my eyes were feeling irritated. Think I know how I got it. Went running and must have got it when I wiped my perspiration with my singlet. Some guys who saw me last night told me I had a sore eye but I brushed it aside thinking it was just my eyes irritated by the sweat. It's definitely not a good feeling. Arghhh...

Tomorrow's cousin's wedding. Hope to have a good time there.

I am just so irritated with my eyes.

Anyway, first time attending a ROM ceremony. Though I have no clue what is happening tomorrow, just go there and see for myself.

New batch coming in next week. For friends who are planning to meet up, pls let me know early. December is going to be a busy month for me, even though it is supposed to be the end of the year and everyone's relaxing. Nonetheless, I will still take the time out as far as possible.

Some of my guys from 2 batches before are going for their OJT(on job training) and one of them came to bid me farewell cuz they won't be around anymore. Pretty nice gesture cuz he was appreciative of something I helped him with. Seeing them moving on in their career reminds me of how far they have come and how long I have been around. Well, at least I can say that I left some sort of legacy in the Navy. Haha. But seriously it's an ambivalent kind of feeling, a mixture of pride and the knowledge that we just move on with our own lives. It's a sad but true fact of life.

Got an offer for Bath and still waiting for the rest. Oxford is now barking me to send them my test centre declaration which I am not sure I want to. Hmm ...

Work has been piling up like crazy. Supposed to be lull but I spend more time doing "firefighting". Should be going back on Friday to clear up the backlog of emails and what have you.

Ok, I can't stand it. Gonna get my eyedrops ....Ciao~

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Walk down Orchard Road

Had a pretty ok day. Just came back from meeting dan and ZH. We met in orchard for shopping (I mean what else can I do with these 2 guys? They are really shopping kings). Though I was the one whose least engrossed, it's nice to go walk around and have a change in environment. Proceeded to Lemongrass @ Hereen for dinner cuz of a discount ZH has. Food was damn spicy and so-so. Well, I never really digged Thai food anyway. Both of them were contemplating going to Eskibar which fortunately we did not go. Saw some stars like jacelyn tay and her boyfriend, some superstar contestants. Talking about superstar, i really think those people who take part in these contests are so fake. All pretend to be so friendly towards one another when all they hope for is to eliminate one another.

This brings me to my recent shocking discovery. Found out that one of my OCS instructors is one of the Superhost finalists. He is M3, LTA(NS) Liu. Quite surprised cuz didnt think he's such a person. Well, remember him as a nice guy who doesn't scold us. Very tall, he's like 1.8m plus. The only thing I don't like about him is that he smokes. Yeah. Anyway, I don't think he will win cuz I dun think he is not that good but hey, who knows what will happen man?

Currently in the midst of devouring Kazuo Ishiguro's Never Let Me Go which I borrowed from YQ. A pretty indulging read and though I have yet to finish it, I don't think the book is as impactful as I thought it will be. Don't get me wrong, it's a great book to read but it just fell short of my expectations. Will still recommend it to all.

Ok this is the photo we took outside Paragon:

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Drive, drive and drive ...

The title kinds of describe what I have been doing lately.

Actually wanted to post more pics but wanted to wait for more people to send me pictures before I do it selectively. So, whoever is reading this: CAN YOU PLEASE SEND ME THE PICTURES THAT YOU HAVE???

Sz hua is leaving for Manila to take part in the Sea Games, so wish her all the best! You go girl! Go win a medal so that you can show us the next time round we meet up. Anyway, she's playing softball for Singapore, so I'll be looking out for that. Ziyang also just came back from Wallaby. Guess it's time for me to meet up with some of my classmates=)June's also back from Australia. December is a time to meet up old friends but I wonder whether I have the time ...Next batch coming in 2 weeks later.

Well, spent my 2 days chionging my driving lessons. Can see the improvements and had my first circuit today. Fingers crossed, hope I can clear my test next month.

Enjoy the photos below. Thanks to those who sent me the photos=)

Friday, November 25, 2005

And more photos ...

Everyone doing one of my signature move
One of the act cute pose that they made me do=p
The angle is a little off cuz too many cameras ...but nice pic nonetheless

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Photos ....

Instructors of 02/05 BMT
The officers' pose
Nice right? Whole batch of 2/05
Jeremy took this pic with me on his cam. See me wearing my new jacket?
DJ and myself=)

Your appreciation is noted

I am officially sick. What a way to start off my lull period. Sucks man. The medicine is making me drowsy and I had a terrible time driving just now. Felt damn stoned. Thank god nothing bad happened.

Well guys, thanks for your outpouring of gratitude. Received a message on friendster which I thought initially was from someone who needed my email in order to add me before I realised I already put my email on my profile. So, thought it weird that someone wanted to send me a message. So it was a pretty lengthy email thanking me for whatever I have done and he was just shy to say it in front of me so he chose this mean of communication. Quite touched I must say.

I suppose such intangible rewards are quite encouraging. I may not ask for tangible rewards (though I certainly dun mind one=P hehe) but at least this comments validate my effort and hard work.

Now it's lull and I really hope to finish reading a book though I am quite sure I won't meet this target. Probably meet up with some people during this period before the next enlistment.

Ok, seem to be unable to write a lot now so I'll just leave it as it is. Will upload photos.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

2/05 BMT POP Loh!!!

Man, been feeling a little under the weather since I woke up. Been coughing a lot, prob due to accumulation of stress, the weather and the inadequate ingestion of fluids. This means that I cant go for some exercise which I'm badly in need of cuz I rarely have the free time to go sports complex.

Finally, 02/05 BMT POPed. Think they are all damn happy and relieved to get out of BMT and be rid of me. The last 2 days were hectic, yet I feel that we didn't manage to achieve much despite the clock ticking by. It didnt help that 24 guys FAILED their seamanship test which resulted in me having a paltry 19 people left behind to rehearse. Yeah right, these people were probably more eager to go back to their welcoming bed on a blue Monday morning. Ok, I digress. I must admit I had fun playing mind games with some of them about whether they passed anot though it was because I didnt have the chance to tell them as a whole cuz something always cropped up (Eg going back to see XO regarding the guy who smoked in uniform). 9 still failed their retest and they just have to work a lot harder now. But I was kind of disappointed that 5 or 6 of my award winners failed. I just don't think it's acceptable. Must admit that I have high standards, but hey it's for your own good k?

The guys got whacked on the last night. Serves them right if you ask me. Later that night, there was a blanket party waiting to happen as they waited for me to leave. Didnt help that one of my instructor was there too and waiting for me to leave too. Well frankly speaking, I find their actions really childish. Anyway, I went up to stop the second one as I was disturbed by the noise as I was sleeping. As for the other guy, let's just say he was badly mauled. Haha

The POP went on quite ok i suppose. The only weird thing was that the guests came pretty late. I have to admit that this is the first time I saw this trend. I had called the guest of honour over to start the event and in the end we waited at the car porch for the parents who came a little late to get to their seats before we proceeded. If you think that's the worst they can get, think again. People were still streaming in up to half an hour into the performance. I dunno how highly they regard their sons' POP since they can actually come so late. I know my family would have made the effort to at least be on time to watch what I have spent so much time and effort rehearsing to show them.

This time round, I watched the whole proceedings from the front row. It was a refreshing change as I spent the last 2 batches running around like an idiot to make sure everything flowed smoothly. Still, it was painful for me to watch them so up close. Not that they were that bad or anything like that, it's just that I could see the nervousness in them and some of the minor slip-ups here and there which I would know. I cringed the most during the marching in. Oh man, I felt ashamed to show this standard of marching to the parents. Nonetheless, I know that their parents still felt proud of their children.

During the refreshment, I went around with my boss to mingle with the parents. Was about to get a cup of drink when the "full-fledged privates" blocked my access to the drinks and I had no choice but to carry on without a sip of water throughout. And they were supposed to have undergone a transformation. Hmm...

Did some PR with my boss as we walked from parent to parent. Started off with the coy best, Jian Hong. After a round of introduction, he introduced me to his girlfriend by saying," He is the Ah Zhong" *pengz* I was now officially known by the title of my blog. God, that's how degrading. Moreover to a stranger. It would certainly have felt better f he had introduced me as, "lieutenant clarence, the officer whose blog we have read". Luckily, I was self assured enough to keep my dignity intact.

We went on to a few other parents and there was this mother who told me her son idolises me. My immediate reaction was: oh ok. Thought people would probably hate me to the core. Well, all I can say is something which applies to all: Learn the good things and discard the bad ones.

The rest of the day was spent clearing up after they have all left. The handing and taking over between me and kenneth didnt manage to take place, not that it mattered that much. I went home to bathe and change which I did quite late cuz of the stupid exercise which restricted my movement within camp, though I think the CDS people had it worse. Pity them, though I will probably be joining them during reservist. Timed myself to reach there exactly at 7 whereby only 9 people were there, most delayed due to the rain.

Had a rather good time there and took lots of pictures. People even took pictures of instructors as we were eating. (???) I really didnt understand. These people were surprised to see a side of me they only saw in the photos in my blog. Did they think I live my life based on sorrow, wrath and vengeance? But it was the first time they actually saw me laughing and smiling so much. So can't blame them.

Anyway, I took many pictures and they kept getting me to do stupid poses. One guy came to me and wanted to take a pic of me with him looking like he wanted to punch me. He was one who told me blatantly that he didnt like being scolded by someone younger than him(aka me), thus he felt damn shiok to take this picture. Cheap thrill. These people were so busy taking pictures and the weird thing is that they were taking pictures of anyone who was posing for one. So at any one time, 3 or 4 cameras can be flashing for 2 people.

One guy, Teng Ji, even asked me whether I see a psychologist cuz of my apparent quick mood swings.(From being fierce in front of them to joking in front of instructors) What a dumb question. If I had some mental problem, I would not have been able to stand in front of him.

I had a great time nonetheless though the food was only ok. I went back to camp with Chang Hong and Brandon thereafter. Nothing eventful happened and the whole block felt kind of empty. I always need to get used to not having any trainees under me and having to co-ordinate their training when they passed out. Once the new batch comes in, I will feel like I have not rested enough.

Anyway, despite my feeling not too good, I still managed to churn out 2 small reports after repairing my card for my com. Office was rather quiet, leaving me to hold the fort, as usual. One of ex-recruit is now a perm staff here and he brought down leftover refreshment from an event to my office. Then, I kena a function tomorrow night. It is to represent my unit at Income Day, where NTUC Income will host a function to celebrate its annivesary. I expect it to be a rather grand event, especially with its formal dressing. I will most probably be sitting with a group of older guys who will prob be wondering what is this young punk sitting there with them. I dun really care, just going for the free food which I expect to be really good since a minister is there. Moreover, it's gonna be at the ballroom in Swissotel, so the food should be of a certain standard.

Just found out that I will taking part in a retreat for my unit end of the year. Basically, the top and middle management come together to do some discussion and at the end of it, have a party. Wonder how it will turn out.

OK, it's pretty late. Feeling a little like having flu and have been gulping tons of water since dinner and covering myself in my newly bought jacket. Spending the night in camp. Again. Prob have to see how to manage my driving lessons. Test next month ...

And guys, I know a lot of you are reading, so can you kindly send me the pictures to my email or on msn if you have mine? Only those with my face please. Dun waste my disk space otherwise. If you do not know my email, it's zhong172@hotmail.com. And if you're thinking of not sending me, this is an order. =p Enjoy your break while it lasts.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

No time ...No time ...

Ok, I did not complete this over the weekend so I am publishing it today. Will post another one soon for this week:

3 more days to their big day. Man, how fast huh? I'm like 3 quarters way through. Almost. Still remember how on my first day I saw a bunch of recruits and talked to them. I kind of like freaked out for a while cuz I never addressed a bunch of unfamiliar faces before. Lo and behold, my first batch came in and I remembered waking up way before everyone on the day of enlistment. Now my 3rd batch almost coming to an end.

Got pretty pissed off when I found out to my horror that I got to pay a few hundred bucks just to get some ppl to invigilate some tests for me. This is getting ridiculous.

Went back to VJ on Monday and realised that many changes have taken place yet again. The office is brand new and they actually built a tree house. Wonder what that was for. Met my GP tutor who told me that she was going to take a year of no-pay leave to look after her kids. Wow~, what a leap of faith. Anyway, I walked round the school for an hour plus before finally finding my math tutor to do the stuff for me. Managed to hastily post the documents and hopefully they reach there on time.

These past few days were crazy ...in the words of my driving instructor: mang dao lian da bian dou mei you shi jian (So busy until don't even have the time to shit). It became a daily routine of wake up, go rehearse and then KO within a min of lying on my bed. Worse was yesterday, woke up early for the remarch (Ok I did not march but I needed to supervise) and it was raining heavily. Everything kena pushed back and we were like managed to make it all in the nick of time only.

Saw an ex-recruit, kelvinjeet on my way to my aunt's house for bbq. He was from my first batch and one of the good runners. We talked for a while and caught up a little. It's always nice to catch up with them and find out what's going on in their life.

Was supposed to go out with dan and ZH on sunday but I rejected them cuz I felt I needed a good rest. Guess he was kinda pissed cuz his birthday is coming soon but I really didnt wanna go out. Just chill at home. Didnt even have enough time as it is ...

Sunday, November 06, 2005

People doing stupid things ...I wonder why

Work sucks. Period. Friday brought about a chain of events that simply infuriated or messed me up. Rather it was thursday night when we booked in. Like what I told my mom, should have never given them a long break cuz they were bound to give me problems. True enough ...

1) One guy came in with dyed hair. Prob trying to conceal it by cutting his hair real short. Think I am blind? Think again. How dumb can one get? Period.
2) Got info that one guy got caught smoking in uniform in public by a military policeman. Don't want to say anymore, just refer to (1)
3) Gave them notice of some posters I wanted about 2 weeks ago. Wanted 2 in per section on Friday. A3 size. 5 handed in to me were in A4 size. Hastily printed out. Are my instructions not clear enough? Do I have to physically do one out before you understand what I want? A3size! I never believe my guys to be stupid, but lazy probably yes.
4) People not booking in on the day they are supposed to book in after MC. What can I say? Den give lots of excuses, like forget office number. I mean, come on ...They say the military transforms boys to men. What I see here is immaturity and the lack of responsibility. TIME TO GROW UP!

Blasted the recruits as I felt that enough was enough. It was a scolding session peppered with a lot of f***. Yet, I believe some people will just "one ear in, one ear out".

And there a few major things happening next week that's gonna be a HUGE headache for me=(. Apparently. I've lost weight. Think 1 kg? Go figure.

Thanks YQ for your "enlightenment" on the mistake.

Settling something in the meantime that involves an ORDed personnel. Damn that guy for giving me so much trouble. Just waiting to be slaughtered soon ...I shall not go into details as I think this should remain classified and what more I dun want anyone who should not be privy to this info know about it. Just have to know that one shall not add on to my problems or I will give hell.

10 more days to POP. Do you think you are ready for it? Do you think you have attained the level required to pass out? More importantly, do you DESERVE to pass out?

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Changing yourself is easier than changing others; Rather, you should inspire and influence others

Ok this is a record. I have never seen so many posts on my tagboard at one shot before. Ok so I'll reply to you one by one. ZY, just met you just now and u should be on your way to wallaby now. Tee Yuan, congrats on being the first to drop your veil of secrecy. Xinghai, welcome to my blog!Ker Min, Lionel and Edwin, I see that you have decided to join tee yuan. And Ker Min, don't anyhow leave your ic number for all to see. Notice how tv shows now block off the first few numbers. Just in case people use it for the wrong purpose.

This remind me of something I need to clarify to my recs. Kboxing is not my fave activity. Don't make this assumption just because of the pic that I posted. For goodness sake, I only went there once or twice before.

Was at choa chu kang cemetry today. As I passed by rows after rows of tombstones, the sudden realisation of the fraility of life hits me. After death, you are just resigned to a confined space few feet underground or reduced to mere ashes. This is a rather sobering fact, albeit a rather morbid thought. Anyway, went through a stoic and poignant procession today.

Oh hi wee beng just saw your posting. Thanks yeah. Man, word really spreads fast and far.

Gotta prepare for some application materials. Really irritating to do all these menial administrative stuff.

Quote of the day:

BMTC should be familiar with this as it came up during one of the ROs:

"In life, changing yourself works; changing others don't."

Agree with the first half but not so the other half. It's not that it doesn't work but it is a lot harder. However, we all have the power to INFLUENCE others to change, thus encouraging them to change themselves. If not, how do we qualify the need for teachers and instructors?

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Some photos I found on Friendster

Saw this on that guy's Friendster. This was taken after POP.
Found this on Friendster too. Have a few other photos too but that will have to wait until I find the time to scan them in. Anyway this was section 2. Nice pose huh?=p

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Hands up those who are reading

Ok, time for some updates. Been wanting to blog but somehow cant seem to find the focus. Was up until one plus last night but couldn't type a single thing.

First of all, some of my recruits have been unearthing my Friendster profile and blog for their reading pleasure. It seems to give them an unbridled enjoyment to do it cuz I obviously have no way of finding out exactly who these people are. And it gives them the opportunity to take jibes at me when speaking to me. Nonetheless, since I want to post something, I should be prepared for people to go read it. Apparently, they have been spreading this site's address around which explains the significant increase in my "readership". My only message is: Feel free to drop a msg on the tagboard and if you feel brave enough, can add me on Friendster. Don't be just another voyeur who enjoys hiding behind a mask of annonymity.

Having a break of 3 straight days which I'm sure everyone is whooping with delight. Will be busy cuz of a funeral in my family. Was rather sudden and I spent the whole of my weekend shuttling between hospital, home and wake. Will be going down later for the wake and may stay till tomorrow. So pardon me if I don't seem to be free these few days.

Been bogged down by work recently. The math file that I brought to read was left virtually untouched. The recent interview I had for Oxford, I was totally stumped by 2 seemingly harmless question. The first was an integration by substitution question of which I absolutely had no inkling of and the second was a graphical question which would have been a walk in the park during my heydays. God I am talking about heydays now. Hopefully, I will have better performances in uni. Have sent in my application and now awaiting replies. Should not have any problems getting accepted but the big question is which one to go to. Haven't given it much thought yet.

Saw this on my future organisation's website, quite interesting:

Have you ever been a victim of group think? This happens when everyone in the committee agrees to a suggestion. However, speaking to them individually after the meeting, you realise that they all had misgivings about the suggestion but went along with it as they felt that the rest were ok with it. If yes, then you have been down the trip to Abilene or have faced the Abilene Paradox.